Sometimes there is wisdom in Silence.
Sometimes there is wisdom in knowing when and what to speak.
Sometimes there is wisdom in speaking whatever.

And sometimes there is wisdom in not knowing.
Not knowing what is happening.
Not knowing which word to speak or withold.
Not knowing anything, really.

Those of you who make and bottle beer
may have had this experience; -
some bottles easily and readily make CO2 -
others don't.
The alchemical yeasting process has its own
wisdom.

Tending a garden shows me that
two or three similar plants next door to each other
often have very different "outcomes."

The Peak Experience happens -
"How did I do that?"
"How can I repeat that?"
(like learning to play a piece of music -
we NEED to know, so as to "play it right.")
Sometimes,
despite all the hype on the web,
there is no way of either
experiencing that wonder again,
or knowing HOW we did it.

If we are speeding towards Zero Point
(a strange zero intensely filled with energetic possibility,)
then we are going to find our bodies,
our experiences and probably our emotions
involved in a kind of
multidimensional re-vamping -
not always comfortable
here on Earth.

This process is teaching me
a relentless lesson in non-attachment
combined with learning how to live
real deep passion and desire.
I'm learning, all too slowly,
how to observe and thus allow,
all the while
intensifying the vision.

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The shaman's teaching is
to hold selective silence while
this is being done,
so as not to
"harm the workings."

I was taught the value of selective silence
by a very dear friend in Sweden
many years ago,
but I could not listen to her wisdom
then.
I thought I had to let out everything.

In the Kabbalah there is
a hidden sefirot, Da'ath
where we are set adrift amidst the chaos,
learning to swim and fly
where our guardian angels may not pass.

In this place of chaos and void
we are privileged to see and experience
that which we could never be part of
by clinging to the known worlds.

Now,
in this Da'ath of pre-birth,
it is as though
I have no other real choice
than to be discerning in speaking,
and knowing -
often because there is no 3D-thing to say,
but, more importantly, because
there are workings afoot
between Heaven and Earth of which
we are all now privileged to be a part,
and yet our fuller Selves have still
to be revealed.

Watch the space
and see the Cosmos
grow!

(And keep breathing!)

John

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Enjoy your holiday.
May your day be blest.

And for those who cannot take the "obligatory family-aspect" of seasons like this,
may you be filled with the peace that says "It's OK to be wholly You."

The 22nd is also St Cecilia's Day, the patron saint of music.
One of those martyrs who died rather than dally with their Truth.

I'm not so enamoured of martyrdom ..
feels too much like people who kill themselves for the "cause"
whatever it may be - I feel it is time to seek the inner peace first
and be able to see peace in places of Untruth and Violence.
But sometimes we will be called on our stand.
And it may well be dangerous.

I pray peace and joy on all of us,
whether we're "right" or "wrong",
whether we "understand" or are "misguided."

And for those who give up their deepest treasures
to stand for their inner Truth,
whatever it may be,
compassionate gratitude.

Yes,
may 22nd November be a blest day.

John

We know that we cannot go on as we are.

Not on Earth, anyway.
That is - if we wish to continue with evolving,

breathing Life on this planet.

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We know the messages from politics, the media, authoritative religion, the drug industry, etc., so often give us a packaged "truth", light years away from that Radical Truth which is capable of the real transformation - a transformation that will "save" and prosper us and Earth.

Zaadz is evidence in abundance of not just a deep desire, but a widespread empowering will that has the potential strength to move mountains and go where others have not dared to tread! In a kind of individually-validated togetherness which strengthens us all on so many levels.

I feel that one of the greatest subconscious temptations that can dis-empower our individual and corporate journey towards transformational practical spiritual Earth Joy, and keep us from Radical Truth, is that built-in desire for outside validation. Particularly for those of us who have been moulded by religious or political or familial frameworks which have covertly or openly demanded allegiance-or-hell. We have in all likelihood an obedience/fear/inadequacy “issue”, which can raise its head just when we are freeing ourselves from all that has limited us, each time sabotaging the journey into lasting and real change.

I suspect that most of us have one especially effective gateway back into disempowerment. And it may well be hidden beneath something that appears laudable, or even indisputable. For me, personally, it is the nature of God and the interpretation of God's "rules" for my life, as I have perceived them proclaimed by mainstream Christianity - a spiritual path that has at the same time both deeply nurtured me and sabotaged me! I love and adore and have craved the nourishment, the community, the ritual, the sense of home and ease and "right" (though not the prevalent modern “dumbing-down” in ritual, artistic expression and theological teaching,) while at the same time becoming more and more frustrated by my seeming inability to lose dependence on the "moral interpretation and rules of orthodoxy" that go with the nourishment. (I suspect that many people within politics have the same dilemma!) So that when, several years ago, the Divine Inner Voice began “dictating” messages to me that went far beyond what the scriptures “allow” I was thrown between elation and body-fear, though I knew at some level that I was being exposed to ever deeper Cosmic Truth!

For me, it seems that our journey towards healing and towards daring to take upon ourselves divine validation and authority is not as straightforward as we somehow in our inner being know that it should be. It isn't enough to "just shed the guilt." (I have done enough Source Breathing, tantric exercises, yoga, Ascension, pillow-bashing, etc to last me several lifetimes!) We’re talking about something more pervasive here - what the shamans call "an imprint." Eons and generations of worry and terror at being found wanting are hidden within those cells and energy layers; not just in me, in us, but in the fabric of this planet, and, I believe, far beyond (- as below, so above.) At risk of alienating half my readers, I might dare to call this the real evil – that is, the separation-reaction that prevents us from wholly seeing Who We Are. The Peruvian Q’ero shamans, (as Alberto Villoldo never tires of repeating,) know that we have never left the Garden of Eden; but this is not a knowing that permeates life in most of the world today. Yet when we free ourselves of our limiting imprints, we, too, can know this, not just as a head-fact or heart-longing, but also as a base-chakra-gut-empowered spiritual certainty that allows us to really see and know at multi-levels.

Whilst we are learning to shed these imprints, and also as support in times of shamanic and sacramental retrieval of our whole selves, it is the community of the wounded-becoming-whole that allows us to be vulnerable enough so as to heal. There are voices clamouring and people yearning and working for such community-in-action here at Zaadz, and also in so many other places, as much for the world’s many disempowered as for ourselves. Nonetheless, though we long to heal those others that are disempowered, in fact we can only begin nearest us, inside, and heal the apparent “otherness” of the other in us. When we find that-which-brings-us-into-Oneness in us, at whatever level, and use it to heal the separation-imprint, then, in greater quantum reality, we are also at the same time taking the steps needed to help those others heal.

In my life, the two most effective methods to heal have been

- making love at ever deepening levels of intimacy and multi-level connection, leading me to know God in the Essence of my Being

and

- making music when it is passionate and unforced, allowing me to channel Heaven through my Mind, Body and Fingers.

Though I love the other healing working I do, and the garden-tending and the kitchen and wine-making alchemy, there is nothing in my life that matches sexuality and music/artistic expression for connective ecstasy!

I feel I am called upon to seek others for whom this is also true – God-wholeness within and without through ever-deepening bound-breaking sexuality, and through passionate artistic expression especially in the service of transformational spiritual (including body) ritual. When my music-making has been combined with transformational worship/ritual, it has been ecstatic for me; I desire deeply to manifest a way of doing the same for sexuality/sensuality and worship.

At some level I am already doing what I describe above. Nonetheless, I feel that in order for this work to go deeper, physical community is required, so as to hold us in faith and gentleness and sacred space, as the hidden fears and imprints surface to be healed and transformed.

Blessings, Joy and Love

John O

Here are my own links and some links to others who have similar visions:

My own site:

at http://christaltemple.com

Deborah Taj Anapol:

at  http://tajmahalo.gaia.com/ and http://www.lovewithoutlimits.com/

Inner Sanctuary:

at http://innersanctuary.ca/index1.htm

Some have called it the Dark Night of the Soul.
Some regard it as "deep things coming up not yet dealt with." Needing work, perhaps.
Or workshops. (Perhaps there's money in this for someone?)
Some smile like the Buddha and just allow. Non-attached.
Some, like Jesus is said to have done, just go away and pray more fervently.

And this "it" - what is it really?
When "things" don't "work" any more, manipulating ceases to have the desired effect, health perhaps threatened, money perhaps notable by its absence, relationships "screwed-up" and time going on and on, giving only temporary respite?

The Silence.
When there is no "Secret" to understand or reach.
The Void.

Yes, we know the Void is the crucible and cradle of all divine Creation - but when the Void has no seeming potential, is like the deepest Winter of the frozen wastes, never really ever thawed....

And we have pretended enough that this is OK, that this is right, that the nothingness is fruitful and nourishing and fertile........

And then?

A good shamanic friend of mine has said often recently that he has begun regretting being "awake" and connected - it hurts so much to see the sleeping and the unawareness; it feels as though it is in him...

Ho'oponopono would say - it is in him....! That is the only real place to heal it.

Does this healing then become the void, neither happy nor sad, neither passionate nor dispassionate - or is this another way of experiencing the bliss of nirvana, the nothingness that the Buddhist monks spend their life going towards?

And when it isn't bliss? When, like Quan Yin, we understand that there is no "coming home" until all are home, and we then suddenly countenance the possibility that this is home.....

Now.

Just like this.

I don't know about you, but in this space I need community. In the 3-dimensional reality that is Earth, in my sometimes forgetful state of believing that there is a veil that separates, the seeming cosmic alone-ness is utterly painful. "My God, why have you forsaken me?"

This trend of the modern world, to shut ourselves up in boxes, watching moving pictures on a screen to divert us, or running through woods listening to iPods, or whatever, is even more Source-alienating than ever before. There is no comfort in these, or in any outer remedy, save perhaps in Nature.

But in community, I may see my mirror, and know that I Am not alone.

I believe that is why there is Creation.
For the experiencing. The touching-full knowing. The talking-laughing-embracing feeling of Cosmic Laughter.

Thank you Zaadzsters for this space. Thank you, all of you who are manifesting different ways of community in a world alienated from itself and its Real Source.

What is this Dark Night? Perhaps it is a time of potential cosmic wonder, a time of  possibility to do "dangerous" fun things like "partying in a tundra-landscape" - a cosmic wonder-full party of sheer awe and delight....

We together in Oneness, in ways we had forgotten since time immemorial.......

Remember the song Come together...?
The last line of the refrain over me.....

Creator Spirit, you, me, the Earth and all the dimensions....

Quite a party.

Can't help smiling when I think of it......

Perhaps, over there, a faint shimmer of the Light before Dawn?

In Love and Light and Laughter

John O

Hi

There have been concerns expressed about tomorrow's FTG.
See, for example, http://jeremiah.zaadz.com/blog/2007/7/there_is_a_flipside_to_ftg
and http://www.evpreversespeaking.com/2007/07/08/don%E2%80%99t-fire-the-grid-it-is-our-prison/

I am concerned about tomorrow's event in the sense that without the deeper awareness of Who We Are, we can easily find ourselves called into taking part in actions that are NOT honouring of God (in all ways, and in all God's forms, including, but not exclusively, ourselves,) helpful at this critical cosmic time, or even "dangerous" personally or for this corner of the universe.

Tomorrow, when CHRISTAL TEMPLE Laughing Church meet, we will be praying and healing ourselves in a protected "space." Only that which Creator Spirit wishes to be manifest through us will be called upon. All else will be given no energy. Our connection to the Sea from which we once came and to/in God, is our assurance that Divine Will will prevail.

What FTG leads to is an open question.
Most humans have pounded and abused the Earth for too long.
Her healing and transformation may well be painful for us in the physical and emotional sense.
But there is no healing for the Earth, for us, for this corner of cosmos individually - we are dependent upon one another. As we are coming into greater awarness of our Oneness and Divine heritage/responsibility, there is really no other choice than to heal. Re-doing the demise of Mu and Atlantis (etc) is not an option.

Prayer, my friends, in that I-AM-knowledge brought through humility and in Unconditional Love. There can be nothing stronger.

Blessings

John O