Daring to claim Inner Divine Authority and Boundless Passion

We know that we cannot go on as we are.

Not on Earth, anyway.
That is - if we wish to continue with evolving,

breathing Life on this planet.

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We know the messages from politics, the media, authoritative religion, the drug industry, etc., so often give us a packaged "truth", light years away from that Radical Truth which is capable of the real transformation - a transformation that will "save" and prosper us and Earth.

Zaadz is evidence in abundance of not just a deep desire, but a widespread empowering will that has the potential strength to move mountains and go where others have not dared to tread! In a kind of individually-validated togetherness which strengthens us all on so many levels.

I feel that one of the greatest subconscious temptations that can dis-empower our individual and corporate journey towards transformational practical spiritual Earth Joy, and keep us from Radical Truth, is that built-in desire for outside validation. Particularly for those of us who have been moulded by religious or political or familial frameworks which have covertly or openly demanded allegiance-or-hell. We have in all likelihood an obedience/fear/inadequacy “issue”, which can raise its head just when we are freeing ourselves from all that has limited us, each time sabotaging the journey into lasting and real change.

I suspect that most of us have one especially effective gateway back into disempowerment. And it may well be hidden beneath something that appears laudable, or even indisputable. For me, personally, it is the nature of God and the interpretation of God's "rules" for my life, as I have perceived them proclaimed by mainstream Christianity - a spiritual path that has at the same time both deeply nurtured me and sabotaged me! I love and adore and have craved the nourishment, the community, the ritual, the sense of home and ease and "right" (though not the prevalent modern “dumbing-down” in ritual, artistic expression and theological teaching,) while at the same time becoming more and more frustrated by my seeming inability to lose dependence on the "moral interpretation and rules of orthodoxy" that go with the nourishment. (I suspect that many people within politics have the same dilemma!) So that when, several years ago, the Divine Inner Voice began “dictating” messages to me that went far beyond what the scriptures “allow” I was thrown between elation and body-fear, though I knew at some level that I was being exposed to ever deeper Cosmic Truth!

For me, it seems that our journey towards healing and towards daring to take upon ourselves divine validation and authority is not as straightforward as we somehow in our inner being know that it should be. It isn't enough to "just shed the guilt." (I have done enough Source Breathing, tantric exercises, yoga, Ascension, pillow-bashing, etc to last me several lifetimes!) We’re talking about something more pervasive here - what the shamans call "an imprint." Eons and generations of worry and terror at being found wanting are hidden within those cells and energy layers; not just in me, in us, but in the fabric of this planet, and, I believe, far beyond (- as below, so above.) At risk of alienating half my readers, I might dare to call this the real evil – that is, the separation-reaction that prevents us from wholly seeing Who We Are. The Peruvian Q’ero shamans, (as Alberto Villoldo never tires of repeating,) know that we have never left the Garden of Eden; but this is not a knowing that permeates life in most of the world today. Yet when we free ourselves of our limiting imprints, we, too, can know this, not just as a head-fact or heart-longing, but also as a base-chakra-gut-empowered spiritual certainty that allows us to really see and know at multi-levels.

Whilst we are learning to shed these imprints, and also as support in times of shamanic and sacramental retrieval of our whole selves, it is the community of the wounded-becoming-whole that allows us to be vulnerable enough so as to heal. There are voices clamouring and people yearning and working for such community-in-action here at Zaadz, and also in so many other places, as much for the world’s many disempowered as for ourselves. Nonetheless, though we long to heal those others that are disempowered, in fact we can only begin nearest us, inside, and heal the apparent “otherness” of the other in us. When we find that-which-brings-us-into-Oneness in us, at whatever level, and use it to heal the separation-imprint, then, in greater quantum reality, we are also at the same time taking the steps needed to help those others heal.

In my life, the two most effective methods to heal have been

- making love at ever deepening levels of intimacy and multi-level connection, leading me to know God in the Essence of my Being

and

- making music when it is passionate and unforced, allowing me to channel Heaven through my Mind, Body and Fingers.

Though I love the other healing working I do, and the garden-tending and the kitchen and wine-making alchemy, there is nothing in my life that matches sexuality and music/artistic expression for connective ecstasy!

I feel I am called upon to seek others for whom this is also true – God-wholeness within and without through ever-deepening bound-breaking sexuality, and through passionate artistic expression especially in the service of transformational spiritual (including body) ritual. When my music-making has been combined with transformational worship/ritual, it has been ecstatic for me; I desire deeply to manifest a way of doing the same for sexuality/sensuality and worship.

At some level I am already doing what I describe above. Nonetheless, I feel that in order for this work to go deeper, physical community is required, so as to hold us in faith and gentleness and sacred space, as the hidden fears and imprints surface to be healed and transformed.

Blessings, Joy and Love

John O

Here are my own links and some links to others who have similar visions:

My own site:

at http://christaltemple.com

Deborah Taj Anapol:

at  http://tajmahalo.gaia.com/ and http://www.lovewithoutlimits.com/

Inner Sanctuary:

at http://innersanctuary.ca/index1.htm